forget that place i found before
it's now kept locked behind a solid door
there's no more light there's only black
its cold and damp and i'm staying back
in a dark dark corner all alone
while my whole being turns to stone
no love no feeling no care no more
just lying curled on a cold slab floor.
people all around have gone
there's a black cloud where the sun once shone.
nothing left to love or look forward to
depression? i'll just join the queue.
i'm such a fool and feel so jaded
any happiness i had has faded.
hard is my heart now, no point in it all
they say that pride comes before a fall.

i hate myself and this stupid ffing world , this life, this being, i hate feeling, i hate love and i hate despair all i can do is sob sob sob over what? how sad is my stupid ffing life
how sad that i cry over what? nothing.

aaaaarggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhi hate my ffing self sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. how can anyone else love me