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Had the worst episode last night and T caused it. I even went to the store and bought the food. I can not even believe what I ate. Spent 20 minutes purging. I think I strained something in my chest.
I think instead of fighting this disorder I am going to just schedule a time to binge/purge like every 9 days or so. Fighting it and feeling shame when I can not control it just makes things worse. Most people make a spa day or a me day to ease stress. I am going to make a binge and purge day to releive stress.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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