((SkyWhite)), don't ever feel ashamed for causing a fuss. That is a symptom of PTSD too.
What you are asking for is not anything wrong or unreasonable at all. And actually, your T is validating that for you, however, he is avoiding telling you that you deserve to get the help you need but the system itself is inadequate when it comes to providing/addressing that genuine need. He actually said a lot about how unprepared he was, yet, he also knows that he has to be careful not to upset the applecart too, because the bottom line is he knows the system in place is underfunded and understaffed and he can do so little about that "fact".

My own therapist explained to me the difference in what I needed and deserved and what is now available in our system too. He said that our system is very inadequate/broken really and that to provide what I needed and really deserved is too expensive to offer now. The facilities that used to exist were unable to sustain and have long been closed down. Where I went, the psych ward only tries to get patients under control with medications and the goal is to get them out as soon as possible as they really are not equipped for any long term caring treatment as I had needed and requested. What my therapist also told me is that the staff in these psych wards have been ill informed in identifying trauma patients and an effort has been underway in training these various individuals/staff members in how to recognize the signs of a trauma patient to avoid traumatizing them even further as was the case with me.

Unfortunately the places that offer the kind of services you want are there but are also very expensive. When I searched the net to find a "trauma specialist" that offered therapy, the cost of going to one of these specialized groups was astronimical, nothing I could afford at all. I also looked for a support group and there were none and the only thing I found was this site. It took me a while but I finally found the therapist I have now, he was not on the net when I searched, he really did not need that as he was filled up just from word of mouth alone. I found him through word of mouth and by that time I was not doing well at all. Well, had I depended on a "system"? I would have never gotten the help I needed. And honestly, if you talk to people that work in the system, away from the system on the cuff, then you will learn just how frustrated these people "are" about the inadequacies of the system. You will not hear that while you are "in" the system itself though as these individuals would lose their jobs. So, the therapist you are seeing has to function within the guidelines of the system which is move patients along as quickly as possible as that is all that can be done as there are simply not enough funds to staff the system to offer the kind of care that is needed. While you are having your hour with this therapist, there is a long list of others waiting for your block of time.

So before you do "any" self blaming, you need to realize how your needs are genuine and deserving, the bottom line is that of "inadequacy" of addressing your needs, not your fault.