So, lately, I've REALLY been considering inpatient treatment...
Does anyone have experience with this?
I have depression, GAD, supposed schizophrenia, and very likely BPD.
I have cut. A lot. But I've not cut in over a week, because I promised a friend that I wouldn't cut without calling him, and I really don't want to disturb him. But I want to cut so badly...
I keep trying to make changes and be positive, but it's not working.
I always end up here. I don't want to be here. I hate this.
I have so many emotions that it's maddening; I can barely even tell what they are. I want to cut; I really want to cut. I can't see hope in anything. I can't see anything ever getting better. If I wasn't such a sissy and a coward, I would have already tried to commit suicide. But I am, so I haven't... I don't know what to do.
It would be great to get some feedback about this... Have you been in inpatient care? How did you get there? Did you suggest it to your psychiatrist/psychologist, call a mobile crisis unit (I don't know what they do, anyway...), or something else?
Please, give me feedback.
I really need help. Very badly...
Thanks...