I also have trouble at night - which is why I got addicted to sleeping pills. Having just recently come off of them - I am now bombarded with thoughts and emotions every night. I cry every night. When I am waking in the morning - I typically do not get up immediately and begin crying again because of rising thoughts.

Hooligan said it well: alluding to there being less external stimuli at night time - which I so completely agree with. Absolutely this is part of it for me. When it is silent and pitch black and I am alone with my thoughts - I can slide into deep despair in a matter of minutes and be bombarded with suicidal urges soon after. These thoughts pertain to painful past experiences and to potentially bad future experiences. I can remind myself that this happens often - and that it passes like a wave. Instead of letting it drag me down to oblivion - I try and ride the wave and feel out the emotions and thoughts the best I can - allowing myself to cry and release when it happens and remain nonjudgmental. Once it passes - I often times feel shame for ever thinking of suicide the night before...

It's amazing how this continues to happen despite the awareness we gain over time. It's like it's a physiological response from the past - and it happens at night time. Like - over time - we train our brain to be a certain way at a certain time of day...

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