Had a very revealing chat with the case worker. Every since this last depression which was different than any before I've felt like I'm just floating along, not careing about much. Just an empty husk floating whichever way the wind blows. My fire has died but she said it was still there under the ash, waiting to be flamed into life anew. But she noted I do have goals, I want to get myself back I want to care and have interest in things again. I guess that's what is meant by baby steps, I kind of thought goals had to be grander and more encompassing. Like I want to get this job or do art again, but those are beyond me at the moment.