Thanks OpenEyes. My T was very upfront about the inadequate system right from the start. But he didn't see any reason why I shouldn't try to bring to light the problems from a patient's perspective. He said I got peoples' attention. So maybe it wasn't a complete loss. One problem was people in my area not having access to a peer support group. The organization that offers this is way downtown, and people in the burbs don't want to go downtown after dark with no parking anywhere. He said he's going to arrange with the org that groups be held at his clinic for people in the area. I'm totally game for that because I like those groups. I told him I would even be a peer volunteer for that.

He was really concerned about how stressful all this was for me and how triggering, so I assured him I wouldn't be emailing complaints anymore. He's a good T. He's gone way beyond his limits to provide me with the best care and attention he could within the program's limitations. TBH, I'm not used to someone caring so much about me. And my pdoc is a gem too. I'm very lucky and maybe I'm worth caring about

This was a pretty bad ***** storm for me and I guess it'll never be over; there'll be others. My hubby said to take it a day at a time. I told him right now I have to take it an hour at a time.