I was number 5 of 6 kids and an unwanted child. My mother seemed to hate me from birth. She was extremely cruel and negligent with me even when I was a baby. My older sister witnessed the negligence but she was only a kid herself. My mother fits the profile of a narcissistic sociopath. My father beat all of us with a strap for the stupidest of reasons usually at my mother's command. There was constant violence and fighting in the home because of my three older brothers and my parents. One of my older bros bullied me too. I was with my mother and my bully bros as a child until my bro started school. When I got older I was raped twice and was in three physically and emotionally abusive relationships. I only just recently started remembering in counseling that I was sexually molested under the age of ten by people outside the family.