Thank you! you make a lot of sense. i hope you're right.

i just feel i have found peace with the thought she is with my other granparents, doing fine, happy and in peace, and i dont have to worry about her anymore. she may not be here anymore and i'll miss her for sure, but i feel now in a way she is Always with me and we still will meet again one day. so i dont see it as a real separation and anway i see it as only temporary. its helping a lot.

also, i love the quote "Death ends life, not a relationship" - Albom Mitch.

Hugs