I have been painting and playing the piano for many years. I am actually pretty good at the things I do. I have been highly complimented . Even so, I am not as good as many others who are way ahead of me. I am often better than beginners and other people who are relatively new. I only get hung up if I think about or expect praise. My best efforts are indeed when I do it for me. That gives me really good feelings as I accomplish something new.