I feel like I am not getting the treatment that I require however there is no way I could get it anyways.

I am constantly on the edge of anxiety attacks because my paranoia is now constant. It’s to the point I won’t talk to my supports unless I know nobody is listening (I check for devices and stuff). I’m getting increasingly nervous about what people are thinking about me. I had an anxiety attack a week ago that last for 4 hours… to the point my body was under so much stress that I just kept puking. I was exhausted for days afterwards.

I can’t receive medication. My family doctor thinks I am out of her league, and the public healthcare system has pretty much exiled me because I got a social worker fired (she broke confidentiality, and slipped something to a family member that was not only untrue, but inappropriate). I’m currently in talk-therapy with a psychologist.

I feel so stuck, and so incredibly scared. I can still function, but at a level that just isn’t good enough.

I am at a loss as to what to do next.