Hello Firebird -- Not having a vacation isn't the worst thing that can happen, you know. Every year, millions of people do not have any vacation. My parents never took a vacation the whole time I was growing up. You are very fortunate that your family was able to afford this in the past. Of course it makes you feel deprived but it is all relative.

Perhaps you can enjoy local parks and attractions, especially those that are free, such as street festivals and craft fairs.

I hope your mother pulls through and that you are able to find some ways to relieve your stress and depression.