I think my meds are actually working; for now, anyway... About time he got it right! Lol.
But, sometimes, it's just so hard, and I don't know if I can handle it. I mean, I know I'm not going to hurt myself, because I just can't... I'm done with that. I can't do it, anymore. I was in the shower, and I looked at my arm (which is usually covered), and it was just... I can't believe I did this to myself. I can't believe I did this to those around me. I can't believe I let it get that bad... It's terrible... I just want to get better, and I don't know how to do it. Things are so difficult and confusing, right now. I just want to get better... :'(