> You do have some happy memories, and you are honest enough to remember that.
The thing is - they stopped being happy to me, despite the fact that some of them were truly best moments of my life. I feel like all my life has been a lie and i understood it just now. In the end, the good memories hurt even more than crappy ones, because i know that they were illusions and i had nothing better than them at all. I wish i could just erase them all, without exceptions. But no, i have to live with them for the rest of my life. Its soul-crushing.

>this person may come to genuinely care about you in a loving way.
I really thought that they did. Three weeks before betrayal she got me 2 self-made presents, one of them was statue of two cat-lovers, which i broke after. I cry when i think about it. Why she did that? How could she change so fast? And ex-friend, just two months before betrayal made a promise that he would never leave me. How could he betray me so much after such words?

> Can you honestly tell me that, after 2.5 years, you had no reason in the whole world to think that your girlfriend wasn't all that sweet of a gal?
Yes, i can. All of your questions - she was very caring to almost everybody in her life, including myself. I paid her back with the same caring attitude.

>You have no right to trust anyone that you do not know.
I knew this dude for 15 years. I think i had right to trust him. Or maybe i am fool and all this time he just waited for opportunity to crush me. If so, he succeeded. How could i not see his desire to ruin my life?

>Now, do you really think that two people who treated you mean are going to be all that wonderful to each other?
Sadly, but im sure of it. I saw that they were getting along with each other much better, that each of them was getting alone with me, ever. They have so much positive energy. And the ex-friend is filthy rich, a young millionaire, he has unlimited possibilities to treat people nice, especially my ex. I know that he already gave her presents so expensive that i could never afford. They will float in happiness and luxury while i will have to struggle with extreme depression and poverty.

>Finally, why be mad at everyone in the world because of what two people did to you?
Because i got so much anger, hate and destructive energy from this situation. The desire to get revenge on them is incredibly strong. I want to ruin their perfect life, like they ruined mine. And since i know that its impossible to get this revenge, im afraid that i would direct this destructive energy in the outside world. I tried martial arts already and it didn't help at all. Any advice how to avoid getting revenge and deal with destructive energy?