Hi Scardy. I suspect that the best thing all around is for you to get super-focussed on your own physical and mental health whether your relationship works out or not. What you're doing for depression apparently isn't working, so you have to figure out what to try next. Personally, I think that the best plan for depression is this:

1. Get yourself checked out for purely medical issues that can cause depression. There are surprisingly a lot of these.

2. Try ALL the known non-drug ways of improving depression.

3. If all else fails, try antidepressants as advised by an MD.

For 1, there is a video where some of the medical issues are discussed in post #45 of this thread

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html

I think this always makes sense, but ESPECIALLY in your case.

For 2, non-drug ideas include diet, supplements, exercise, therapy, brain training, meditation, other ideas listed in "depression success stories" here. The thread above includes my own secret weapon. It's very easy to try and, in a sense, it is a way to find your own inner strength.

I think you can cope on your own, too, if it comes to that.

- vital