I write about problems working while depressed on here a lot. Today is a tough day for me and I'm not sure how I'll finish it. It only started, but I'm already afraid of how to survive the day.

It is lonely working because people around you don't get the difference between normal job hate and depressed working. I actually could like my job if I wasn't so depressed and lonely at work. Plus it's getting harder at home because I have so little time there and my family is fighting a lot (I have a teenage daughter who fights us on everything). I'm beginning to hate work and home.

I only try to cling to the techniques I've learned like doing the opposite of my feelings and doing work regardless of my feelings. Basically trying not to let my feelings dictate my actions. It's hard and I fail a lot by calling in sick. I've been called out about my attendance already. Because I'm a manager I have to keep that pretend happy smile going so as not to demotivate anyone. In the end I want to quit, but I'm the only one bringing in an income for my family.

Hating work is normal, but it's really hard for depressed individuals because even if they liked work it would be hard. Try to be proud of the fact you are functioning regardless of your feelings.