I had an appointment with my pdoc today. My CPN was going to attend with me, to discuss the misdiagnosis and put me on new meds.

I thought that the appointment was at 2:30, turns out it was 12:30. My CPN didnt bother to ring me or anything. I am seeing them as I have very suicidal tendencies and can not manage daily normal life. I suffer with short term memory loss and voices in my head telling me to do things.

Now i have to wait 3 more weeks to see the pdoc after already wait 2. My CPN can't see me until next tuesday. I am really stuck. I just want to top myself and have done with it.

I am so angry, I can't function or manage daily life and I have to continue on with this and not have anyone to talk about it til next tuesday. I sleep 4 hours a night and this has being going on for over 1 month. Then on top of that I have to wait an extra 3 weeks for them to even do anything about this.

I lost my job, I can't attend Uni because of my mental health. Theres no point in me.