I just discovered that you and I have a lot more in common than I thought.
I spend a lot of energy trying to find reasons for his behavior, something that can be a good excuse because I still, after all we've been through, don't believe he means to hurt. This recent possible diagnosis just gave me that. So, I feel I should be understanding and caring, but I am also tired of already being that for so long.

I'll have therapy today ( thank goodness ). I'll talk to my t about how I'm feeling, and I'll also talk about how I feel in regards to her approach to my marriage and him. I'll be brave in her office. It is a safe place for me to be brave.

gab