Finally i have my answer....

i questioned him on friday and received no answer - this morning when i got to work i had an email....

This is what it said

I was off on Friday. Thats why i did'nt respond to your e-mail.

The reasoning behind my decision is as follows - You're a married woman, and under normal cicumstances, this would not bother me, but you being who you are, it hurts just knowing that I will never be able to hold you in my arms and i'll never really be able to make u mine. You might find it strange that i feel this way, but the truth is that i also think its weird. You are not like the other chicks that hang with me. They're a bunch of air-heads who just wana be noticed and is only looking for a nice time. You seem to see thru my ******** and put me on my place when neccessary. Also, you can hold your own. You aint no pushover. But most importantly, u make me larf. U really do.

So, if i will never HAVE you, then rather just give up. And being friends is not an option, cos i'll always wana get into ur pants and the rejection......well, we won't go there.

ANOTHER CHAPTER CLOSES IN MADKITTY'S LIFE

i really dont want to loose him as a friend - he seems to be the only person who is able to put me on my place when i am being a total jerk....other ppl are too scared to do this...

and the answer is yes, my hubby knows about him....they havent officially met....but i dont keep secrets from him.