You miss what you lost. That's normal. But to say that, since you didn't get to keep what you once had, then you are sure you will never have anything again is basically a heavy duty case of sulking. Go ahead and waste your life that way, and you never will have anything again to be happy about. Life involves painful losses. The pain subsides, as we replace what was lost with what we then move on to discover.

A young man picks up the phone and is told that his wife and children were all killed in a highway accident or murdered by a home invader. It happens. I don't know how anyone recovers from that kind of painful loss, but people do. He'll live with the loss for the rest of his life, but he can recover his sanity and happiness. I'm not sure I could, but people do. And plenty of people have recovered from losses exactly like yours.

So you thought that, if someone promises never to betray you, then you should be able to go by that? So you thought that people can be depended on to keep their promises? Well, now you know different . . . . they can't. People are always breaking promises. That's why we have a court system to enforce contracts. You can never, ever depend that someone is going to do anything (or not do anything) just because they promised you. Maybe you think that people should keep their promises. So do I. But that's not how people always are. It's time you caught on to that.

If you are struggling with poverty, then maybe you shouldn't be hanging around with a millionaire guy friend. I'ld recommend you get to know people in circumstances more similar to your own. Also, I'ld recommend you work on getting out of poverty. Lots of women don't care about getting real expensive presents, but they do tend to care if a man can support himself and any future children who might come into the picture.

There have been men in your situation who have committed murder to vent their anger. You probably could ruin the lives of your ex and friend, if you make that your goal. You can direct your energy in whatever direction you choose. You can be creative, or destructive. If you believe that experiencing heartbreak gives you an excuse to be destructive, then I really don't have any advice for you. In fact, if that is the way your mind works, then I'm starting to see why this girlfriend might have decided to move on. Based on what you've told me about how you look at life, I think a girl would have to be an idiot to want to hang around with you.