hey. you know... i was just about to hunt through the general archives to find your post so i could PM you. haven't seen you around for a while and i was worried about you.

i intended my post to you to be supportive. encouraging. but sometimes i miss the mark. if it was overbearing then i'm sorry. i'm glad to see you here. i was worried.

and... glad to hear you are doing a bit better.

yeah. i get scared of getting better sometimes. its not a fear i have right now, but it is certainly a fear i've had in the past. linehan had something to say about that, actually. about how people often are afraid that if they don't have so many crises or something then they are afraid their t or p-doc will leave them.

sometimes we do better when we have the support of a t and / or p-doc. i mean we do a lot of hard work that helps that process along to be sure. but sometimes it is precisely because we have developed a fondness / attachment to them that is somewhat secure that we do do better in our life. but then the fear of losing them can kick in. i'm glad you managed to tell him about your fear. ideally... he might be able to reassure you. committ to seeing you for a certain period of time even. so even if you are miraculously cured you can have his support for a while until you can start to get that support that you need outside therapy / your p-docs care.