>You miss what you lost. That's normal. But to say that, since you didn't get to keep what you once had, then you are sure you will never have anything again is basically a heavy duty case of sulking. Go ahead and waste your life
Sometimes it seems like its already wasted. I still want to fill the void that i have after them. Im afraid to invest in relationships anymore. How to supress this fear?

>A young man picks up the phone and is told that his wife and children were all killed in a highway accident or murdered by a home invader. It happens. I don't know how anyone recovers from that kind of painful loss, but people do. He'll live with the loss for the rest of his life, but he can recover his sanity and happiness. I'm not sure I could, but people do. And plenty of people have recovered from losses exactly like yours.
I admire such people. I personally think of myself as a weak-minded person that can't compare to those examples of strong mind fortitude. Some think that intense suffering is capable of making people stronger. Do you agree?

>If you are struggling with poverty, then maybe you shouldn't be hanging around with a millionaire guy friend. I'ld recommend you get to know people in circumstances more similar to your own. Also, I'ld recommend you work on getting out of poverty.
We started together in poverty, 15 years ago. I did support him for his project that gave him wealth. You think that i should have dropped our friendship the moment he got rich? I regret introducing them to each other, thats for sure. And im no so bonderline poor as you might think. I still styding and can have only part-time job until i get my diploma. Many people of my age don't work at all, because parents give them all the money. I don't have that possibility. And 60% of my income went for my ex needs.

>Based on what you've told me about how you look at life, I think a girl would have to be an idiot to want to hang around with you.
Thats very harsh words you said and it was very painful to read. Do you honestly think that i deserved such words? This is not supportive at all, i will feel bad all night because of it. You got completely wrong impression of me. When i wrote words about revenge i was very upset, now i feel remorse for even writing them. You think im some thug that going around killing and robbing people? You are so wrong. I don't even capable of doing the things that i wrote. This kind of thoughts started to appear only after their betrayal, because my mind went insane. I lost control of my emotions and anger is of them. In fact, i never harmed my ex in any way or expressed this kind of destructive behavior. All i did for her was supreme good attitude. You can't imagine how much time, money and emotional support i gave her. I hope you will change your mind about me. I also have obsessive disorder with depression tendencies. Two years ago my previous doctor said that i can be on meds if i wanted to. And so i was on meds for 2 years. My ex talked me out of them, said that "i didn't need them to be happy". When i stopped taking them, my mind changed, i became more unstable, bitter and depressed. And instead of helping me getting through this phase, she started to reproach me for negative changes. If i would have taking pills and spoiling my brain further, its possible that we would be still together. This is one hard regret i have.