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Originally Posted by shakespeare47
I can relate.
In some ways I look like I'm doing okay. I'm married, I have a fantastic son. I own my own business.
But in other ways, there are problems. It may not be a problem for you, but I can be boastful and arrogant, and people often respond to that attitude with contempt.
I see your quotes.. and have had people make similar comments about me.
I don't know what the solution is. I keep going on. I try to find venues where I can be truly honest and yet keep the self-loathing to a minimum.
I don't have any real friends besides me wife, and even she isn't always on my side. But, I'm not even sure I want friends. and I've been told that most American males don't have friends (I'm not sure how true that is, but it sounds good.).
Looking back on my life, it seems I've chased away some fairly decent people. But, even they weren't perfect. They all had their own issues. Again.. I don't know what the answer is.
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Now that I think about it my old friend who I had known since middle school was a narcissist probably. He was friends with me because I was a poor sad sap with no friends so that made him feel good to have someone around to make him feel better about himself and I was friends with him because I had no one else really. He really liked to go on about himself. He had great hair but I am thinking by the time we are 40 he'll be bald and i'll feel good about it when he does go bald. Probably not a good thing to think about someone.
Friends are bothersome I find. Always wanting to go out and do stuff when I just don't want to leave the house. Ever. Also they just end up being a source of jealous rage for me. I already get that enough from normal people who aren't my friends.