That sounds like a really horrible situation and, going just from what you have said, I would say that it is not worth it to stay. My alarm bells are ringing like crazy.

OMFG at the convo with rapist, TELL ME this guy got convicted. I feel sick.

My partner is the one who cops my abuse. He actually said to me the other night during an argument "can we just skip to the part where you call me a **** and say I don't understand?"....That stopped me lol. He has told me though that if I tell him that I hate him I better bloody mean it. I have only said it a couple of times.

I have a little bit of an advantage, as you may have guessed by my terms, I am poly (not everyone can do this but I just don't feel jealousy *shrugs*) so when my sex-obsessed boyfriend was having a hard time with my not being able to touch him, I let him have booty call with someone else (funnily enough he didn't even have sex with her, he just needed someone to hold which is kinda sweet =3)