I've given up trying to make other people understand. It is what it is and I can't keep apologizing.

I saw my T today. I was sooooo down before I saw her. When I'm depressed I can't think rationally or very clearly. Through speaking to her about the situations I'm facing this week she gave me three positive strategies I can try. Wouldn't have even thought of them myself. She's not there to pat me on the shoulder to say I'm sorry dear. She's always constructive.

Be well and I hope you find the support you deserve.