Sunrise - Your post was really interesting to me because I had similar feelings just a couple weeks ago. I also intensely look forward to each session and never thought about canceling. We also have the couples thing in common. I don't know if you remember me, but I see my T individually and also for couples.

In my last couples my T said something that kind of upset me. I was going to bring in up in my individual session but we got going on another topic and I never got around to it. Then I felt like we'd gotten to the point were we had talked about all the 'easy' stuff and it was going to get more intense. I hate the idea of crying in front of anyone and it just seemed like some of my numbness was gone and that was what was going to happen. Also, I was feeling some pressure on the marriage front.

Anyway, all of a sudden I got the idea that I was going to call and cancel my session. I had a lot of frustration built up and I had this bad idea that I was just going to quit therapy and move on. By the time my next session came around I had cooled down a bit and even though I was anxious I did go to my session.

It turned out I was really glad I went. I told her what happened. We talked about it with the promise to talk about it again this week. She even scheduled me to come in after one week instead of two. It turned out to be a really positive experience.

I just share this to give you encouragement to continue on. The couples and individual thing can seem really confusing and difficult, but if you have a good T (and sounds like you do) they are trained to handle this stuff. Good luck and I really hope you either call your T or bring up your concerns in your session. Remember just because it is a couples therapy session doesn't mean you can't bring up individual concerns as well.