Yesterday morning, we planned to spend the evening together. My goal was to establish a plan to fit me into his life more. I have very strong intentions of calling it off because i cant take these feeling of being blown off. I also found that he was with friends bragging about having money in which he doesnt at all.

When i called him for a meeting time, i couldnt get an answer. Eventually i had a message from him. He told me that he has a lot going on at this time. He asked me to give him some time. He said that he isnt ignoring me or anything like that. He added that he is just going through something.

I felt better when i heard his message. It made me feel like be wasnt rejecting me. As the night progressed that changed a little. I am going to keep myself busy and enjoy my life but i am at risk of feeling abandoned or not cherished