Funny thing about my last session. I didn't really have anything to talk about, so I kind of free-styled it. I asked her....
Do you see me getting better?
What are your long term goals for me?
What is my diagnosis?
We talked about this, plus some issues I had. It was the best session I have had to date. I have a stuttering problem, but during that session, my stuttering was rare. My stuttering and my social anxiety kind of fuel each other, so during that session I felt amazing. I told her I trust her and there are not too many people in the world I can trust. I could see her eyes watering throughout the session.
It was weird, it seemed like more like a heart to heart than a T/Client appointment. I feel very lucky to have her after this session. To know she cares for me as a person and not just a client, really makes me feel very good. I wanted to hug her so bad, but I was scared she would get freaked out. I have told her in the past that I have had Transference with her, find her very attractive, dream of her, in love with her. She said that was all normal just as long as it doesn't interfere with my goals in therapy.
I'm just so happy to have her.
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I'm her...new...cool...meat. She pops the trunk, and she removes me, the machine takes pictures of us, and my jaw and my teeth hurt, I'm choking, and gnawing, on the ball....and just before I come to, I move to the back of the car, she makes me touch the machine, new murderer. Soon I'll let you go, soon I'll let you go, so she says.
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