I am feeling blocked from my body. Like we have stopped communicating. I am also have thoughts about nothing that is real. I will think of something that has happened that day and than add an entire scenario that never occurred. I know it didn't happen but I imagine it did and for no productive reason. Right now and for the past few days I am imagining that I am physically ill, that there is something really wrong with my body and my body isn't saying anything. I think it is in my head because I am feeling like I am in a dark place looking out. I have also don't ever remember being in this position. Things are changing but I am not sure where it is going. I also have been feeling my actual age for most of the day. Not something I have ever been conscious of for any period of time. Something is changing but it doesn't feel freeing it feels burdensome and dark. I just need to get this out. I will try to see if I can understand what is happening. It is disturbing.