I'm stuck reducing my main anti-depressant because I was always at too high of a dose that was safe. It turns out I needed it reduced to fit a dose that is safe in combination with other meds.

Well I've never been doing well to begin with, but now it's even harder. I'm being given other things to compensate, but a recent change made last week is making things really hard. I guess i'll call my p-doc to see if there's any options.

I guess I'm just writing to say I hate being dependent on so many medications to just be "normal". People avoid me in the mornings and it's kind of an office joke. But the joke is because my meds are not in balance. I can't tell them that I'm just not medicated correctly. Plus I have to deal with just feeling bad and having to act nice.

I'm sick of this hell in my mind. I'm sick of being a slave to my feelings. I just don't have the willpower to get out of it or to use enough therapy techniques to be better.