I think I "might" be insightful, because my profession is in the science field (i'm a meteorologist) and the schooling that goes behind that is all about math, physics and other science stuff. so by design the teachers drive the use of "logic" into you. there are not emotions involved in pure weather itself. so i'm "brainwashed" by the use of trying to find logical connections.

trouble is, i've never had emotional training and so the logic and emotion keep butting heads.

maybe that is partly why I like weather, because weather has no motives. it just is. one can try to understand it, predict it (some even try to control it)...but in the end you just have to live in it as best as you can. sometimes i think it is a metaphor for life.

i did call to leave a message with my therapist sunday evening...telling her: this break from therapy has been up and down and I know said "I want to give up" and "don't care anymore" because "I don't see a point"...but at the same time i've been trying hard to find a motivation and that I want to care and I want to have a point. So I said I think I want to discuss coming back for at least one visit.

I don't know when she may return the call...but we shall seee.