Thanks Alex & Pink.

Yes, I believe I will regain the connection when I see T tomorrow. But it will take some time when I get in that room and then it will be over. My inner little girl is craving a lot of attention lately and working through some heavy duty abandonment. Yes I can connect thinking about his soothing voice.

(phone call interruption ... from my husband; said he just needed to hear a familiar voice, but did not offer one ounce of sympathy, validation, to me when I said I wasn't feeling so good either. Hung up quickly saying he just wanted to say HI.)

He is a BIG part of my problem....My husband whom I love dearly is not connected to himself or me... I guess I cannot avoid couples therapy any longer can I?