everybody keeps tellin me that this is the way work is supposed to be like. if it is the same for everyone then everyone is just pretending they are fine? why are there so many people still alive then?
I just told my parents on the phone that I don't want to live anymore. I was really sorry to freak them out so much. but we talked about my situation and I didn't want to lie to them. I'm not going to do anything about that. but I can't change how I feel about this. talked to a friend the other day and he said he can't believe he is going to be 40 in a couple of years and I answered that I can't imagine myself getting that old. I really don't think I can do this so much longer.