today T brought up tapering off to every other week starting this week. We will be ending at the end of December. Between the ending and the holidays, I'm guessing she is thinking every other week will be a good plan. That leaves us with 3 sessions... We still have not talked about who I see next (whether I can transition to someone within the agency or I will have to find another agency), and I never manage to have the courage to bring it up before the end of the session, so not talking about it is totally my fault.
But anyway, the impending loss of T hit me hard again as I was leaving her office today... I hate that I get myself so attached.
On the plus side, I showed her "work-in-progress" pics of the painting I am doing for her (without telling her who it's intended for), and she mentioned wanting to buy it when it was done. I told her it wasn't for sale and she kinda frowned, then I told her she wouldn't have to buy it because it was made for her anyway. She didn't reject the idea, and she mentioned liking it without prompting or knowing it was for her. One of the reasons I didn't want to originally tell her I was making it for her was because I didn't want her to tell me she can't/wont accept gifts. I figured if I just brought it in one session and left it with her, she'd have to hang on to it until she realized that I would refuse to take it home with me... At least this way I no longer have to worry about that.
Anyway, so yeah. My happy-go-lucky-denial was brought to a grinding halt today. Ugh. And I miss T already just in knowing that I won't see her for two weeks (trying to be good and not call to schedule next week though she left the option open). I was so hoping to avoid this again before I moved, but clearly it's not in the cards. :/