I have been absent for a while because I have been in too much physical pain to move. I ended up in the ER last week and after a battery of tests and being sent back to my doctor I have heavy duty pain killers but no clue of what is actually wrong.

So now I have to wait, till the next battery of referrals come in and hope that the specialists see something. My mental health is deteriorating with this, the pain feeds the depression. Last month, I worked out every single day and now I can't walk without holding my stomach and feeling pain in every step.

I know this is my sneaky little hate spiral but I just can't brake out of this space.