I agree... change is hard! Changing Ts... *oomph!*. So not fun or easy. I hope you can bring up the question of what you should do next though... I'd think having a plan might help ease some anxiety (it would for me). But I guess all the planning in the world doesn't make the "missing T" feeling go away... so I'm sorry you have to go through that.

I hope the next one is awesome enough to make the pain worth it!