Peacelily, I really like your name. Thank you for sharing your story. It seems you have been through a lot. I think many of us have been.

What I really want to know is how you are doing right now? Are you okay and feeling pretty good or do you think it is time for your psychiatrist to fine tune your meds.

I have some horrible tales to tell also but I am less and less talking about the past and more staying here in this moment because the past seems to trigger the emotions of the past.

If you want to explore what symptoms might mean here are some quizzes you could try that might give you some assurance of what you may be experiencing
Psychological Tests and Quizzes

Please feel free to contact a Community Liason if you need more help by private message.