I go through these spells where I feel depressed. it's a cycle and I pull myself out of them normally within a couple days. However, this one has lasted longer than the others and it's worse than the others. I don't know if it's maybe because I feel like I'm not sleeping well even though I'm sleeping all night. Yesterday I felt really good, but today it's just back to this empty hopeless feeling. I know I should probably go to counseling but I wanted to try this first. Because I feel like most people who need help feel like they are shunned and having a community like this where everyone is accepted may be more helpful than going to a counselor to get diagnosed. I've been to counselors and I don't feel like they help with anything, not for me. I think it's because I was going to school for psychology and human services, so i guess it's the same as saying that doctors are the worst patients. I know I need help and support. I just think that for me, getting it from regular good ol down to earth people would be more beneficial that getting text book diagonsis. I'm not knocking anyone who does see a counselor, i think counseling is an amazing thing for some people. I actually just finally convinced a close friend to go to counseling.

I just need some coping ideas. When I do talk to anyone about how I'm feeling all they say is "you're strong, you'll get through". Well yea I am, but that doesn't mean I don't need help