i just posted more to this in the SA forum. I think I'm begining to see why I hang around people whom trigger me. I',m attempting to rub out my horrors but putting on the person in the here and now. I've been drawn to this place and person for ages. Now I feel raw whenever I think of even going near this person! maybe it took this to bring the memory of the trigger to the forefront! I dont ever want to go near him!