Hello,

My name is Elin and I'm 19 years old. I am a lesbian.

I have this problem that I keep falling in love with older women. ( in their 30s, sometimes 40s) It is really annoying because I know it will never work and it frustrates me. Whenever a older woman pays lots of attention to me and she is attractive, I melt already. I was abused by my mom and never received love from her, maybe that's important to tell.

I just hate myself because what 19 year old falls in love with a 40 year old? I hope someone can give me some advice or tell their own story.. I am never going to find a nice girlfriend of my own age if it goes further this way..

Thanks for reading

Elin