I'm currently and once again, in a really tough place. Both my parents and myself are struggling with our economies and as much as I've been trying to help, I've been without income for quite some time now and I'm trying to apply for welfare so I'll at least have a bit for presents.

My parents are drained from work and my grandmothers illness and I do mean drained, in every way. I've given most of my money to help relieve them of the pressure of having such a tight economy but I left myself with a pile of bills that's now doubled and I have to pay off some of it come December.

So, I've been trying to do everything I can to find a way to raise money for the presents. And I do know that the alternative would be to just find the cheapest presents, but I made the mistake to lead everyone on into believing I actually have a lot saved up for it.

And it's just not the time to let anyone down.

My parents are in dire need of everything from kitchen utensils to the most basic of things and I really want to just see them smile with happiness on Christmas eve, getting exactly what they wanted and needed.

I'm willing to even secretly spend the money I know I'll be getting on my birthday to buy presents and I know I will be doing exactly that.

I came across a page on the internet, it's a fundraising website, for people in dire situations and as it seems they're raising money for just about anything. I feel a bit guilty, well actually a lot for even thinking about asking strangers for help and perhaps I really am in the wrong, but would it be such a bad idea?

I mean, it's so bad right now that I feel like my mom is doing her absolute best, but I'm already seeing us eating fruit throughout the holiday season, switching the sweet swiss chocolate for grapes and how fun is that? Unless you're on a diet.

I'm of course kidding, but the situation is dire and I just want this holiday season to be without worrying about saving every nickle and penny.

Am I a bad person for thinking like this?

And what's your opinion on fundraising for other people?