I hear the hurt as well. Getting over an awful or an abusive relationship is not easy. I had to face the fact that you really have to be tough and truly get over it before you are able to have a another, this time an awesome relationship.

For me one of the key points was gaining understanding of the fact that the awfulness was not because I was broken or I was not worthy. I wonder if that is why you voice that you dont seem to find the love for you.

I wonder if this would help: Imagine your bestest friend ever. She would like to do something really nice for you, to show what a great person you really are. What is this something? Then go ahead and do this for yourself. You are so worth it!!!