Relapses suck. I had one recently that landed me in the hospital for the first time, but I learned a lot from it---namely, that they WILL happen again and I have to be prepared for that eventuality. But in the meantime, I can make use of my well periods by doing what I'm able to do during those times, and always sticking with my meds and therapy. If they stop working, I need to call my pdoc right away, not wait until I've lost my marbles and am spinning out of control. And I have to stay sober, not just because booze and psych meds do not mix, but because I have a problem with it and cravings for it can lead to a different kind of relapse.

Wishing you the very best in getting the bipolar beast under control.