The truth is that I feel like a massive burden. People that care about me worry. They try to do their best to help me. But everything in my head shouts no. I don't deserve your help. I can't accept your help. I have to do this my own way. I have to do this so I can set you free of me. Because your life would be better without me, without the worry of me and if I am going to make it through the day. I have to do this so you can enjoy your life without stressing about me. I have already pushed so many away from me...eventually you will be pushed away too. It's for the best that I just disappear. Then you don't have to worry about me and doing the right thing all the time.