I'm back again! I ended up getting hospitalized again by my ECT doctor back on November 11. But it was probably for the best because I was in a really dangerous place. On Monday I was feeling horrible, I hadn't gotten any relief yet even after 12 ECT treatments which discouraged me greatly. But on Tuesday I started feeling better out of nowhere. I did one more ECT inpatient on Wednesday then got discharged yesterday. Had my 15th ECT today. ECT dr said she will probably recommend going down to twice a week for two weeks and then once a week for a couple of weeks and then once a month for awhile. All told I'm probably going to end up with at least 20 treatments.

I was disappointed because I thought I'd be able to get back to work after thanksgiving. I'm actually feeling good enough to challenge myself with work again. But I'm going to follow my doctor's recommendation - I don't want to fall back into the depression I just climbed out of. I hope it will last. I haven't felt this good and hopeful in months, not since June.