I don't know where to put this, because this involves me talking about pornography, sexual attraction, and love involved.

I met this guy online just 7-8 days ago. We got sexually attracted to each other and horny over talking, and both ended up masturbating in front of one another. Then I was rushed in him wanting to be in a relationship, so I agreed to it being okay with it. Then over the course of 2-3 days we talked and he realized he was rushing me and said that he understands if I'm not ready yet. Over the few days of being with him, I've realized that we have the same interests, he's attractive, and we both have the same values in what we want in a relationship, many of the same beliefs except for spirituality (he's orthodox while I'm agnostic-atheist). The thing is, I would really like to be with him some day, I want to care for him to so much with him, be by his side, but I can't feel that sexual/romantic emotion to want to do that. It's just not strong enough.

Also, I gave up pornography and I have tried to stop myself from having sexual fantasies of other men. This was just recent. I've been okay with it, and I feel fine with out it, but here's the thing:

Everyone should know about this of me, I've said it before.

I am sexually attracted to angels. Especially the ones mentioned in the bible. I have been blinded by the beautiful western artwork depicting the archangel Michael, and I can't get over my attraction to him. I favor him out of anyone else in real life out of attractiveness.

It is taking me away from my new friend/potential date, and it makes me feel unfaithful.