ella is another part of me.. she seems to come out a lot. My gp, she keeps saying that my T doesnt care about me at all and she is just trying to keep me sick so she can keep seeing me and taking my money. My T doesnt do that though, if anything she cares about me more than anyone and often replies to msgs outside of her designated client hours.. and I know I need to get rid of those tablets but I dont know if I am strong enough. My T does know about them now so maybe I can just give them to her but I dont see her next until Thursday and thats a while away yet..

I dont know. everything is very confusing and overwhelming right now and I dont knwo how to make ella be quiet and leave me alone. nothing is working.