Sometimes I feel like that. Or I start looking for patterns, repetitions, noises from electronics. I always try to fight those thoughts with the idea that they are probably irrational and with the knowledge that knowledge is not always power because no one would believe me. Or that I would be dealt with if they knew I knew.

I kinda get what smilesandcries said, too. I think where you grew up can influence your beliefs & actions. Some of the things that were normal where I grew up could be considered irrational/delusional where I live now.