That is how I feel. I just lost my support group. I started a new job and am interviewing for a better paying one. So I feel very unstable in job terms many hours of the day. My most beloved dog Beau will have died 2 years ago June 10. I have a profession but there aren't many good jobs available and so I have struggled terribly financially much of the last several years. I bought this house with an inheritance from my Mother and the job situation nearly cost me my house. I was not a good steward of the money so the struggle. I miss my dog something awful. I tried 2 other dogs and it was not a good experience. Some say that dogs sometimes return to their owners and a part of me has thought that might happen. But as I approach 2 years without Beau I am so very very sad. I fear I will not see him until I die. That could be decades. I always believed we were meant to be together forever. I know that defies logic--but it is a deep belief I have and maybe is true at some level. I get annuities for 2 more years that combined with piddly pay barely let me get by. I need to make more money in 2 and a half years or I will lose my house. I won't be able to afford it. I never imagined living anywhere else in my life. I love this house so much. It is so dear to me. My heart breaks at the thought of leaving it. I don't know If I could stand it. Truly. This is the house that Beau and I lived in for 10 years together. I still feel as close as is possible to him here. I am just SO SAD and so fearful of the future. I know if you mention the word prayer you are supposed to be in the spiritual section. But I find that silly. Most of this is about my life as a depressed person. Those of you comfortable with prayer, I accept your prayers gladly. Thank you all for listening and if you can relate or have an insight please share.