Did it again last night. It is starting to escalate. Of course I have that ED voice that goes with it. Looking in the mirror constantly, telling myself I am a hyporcrite, I am not a role models, I have to restrict.
I do not consider my eating disorder severe. That is reserved for those that do it several times a day.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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